I was on Facebook not along ago, and I came across an article on Huffington Post titled "16 Habits of Highly Sensitive People." As I read the article, it was like I was reading my auto biography. It mentioned a lot of things that were so on point in regards to my personality traits. I had to confess to myself, I am a Highly Sensitive Person (as if I didn't know before)! But what bothered me the most is that I have allowed that personality trait to sometimes consume who I am. I may be tough on the outside and always have a smile on my face, but inside, sometimes, I'm questioning and analyzing everything; what I did or said wrong, why I take everything so personal, etc. . And sometimes, things don't need to be analyzed, it is what it is. But those unanswered questions can lead to emotions that linger in my head. At times, this trait even manages to find its way between Lowell and me, causing stupid arguments and misunderstandings.

Honestly, this is something I've been struggling with lately and battling with myself over. I take things, even small things, wayyyy to personal, and I've always wondered what the lesson in all of it was. Guess what? The answer has been in my face for a few years. God has been using my own child, Peyton, to speak to me, and I've managed to ignore it this whole time. She's been singing it for 2 years. Let it go!!!!! I have the tendacy to allow things and circumstances (mainly small) to take control of my attitude, character, stress me out, etc.. And sometines, I even take it home with me, internalize it, and not pray about it like the word says I'm suppose to. And it's stuff that's not even worth stressing over. Note to self, pray about it, and LET IT GO! Que the Frozen movie.

The Bible says in Phillipians 4:6 to "Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus."

So first, when my Hyper Sensitive Personality begins to kick in, there's literally 1 simple thing that I should do: pray. I should do it humbly and with a heart of thanksgiving, and ask God to take away my anxiety so that I can think clearly. As a result, He'll provide me with peace that I can't even comprehend where it came from, and as a bonus, He's gonna even protect my heart.

Something that seems so simple, yet it's something that I struggle with. But I know the more I get in my word, and pray, praise and worship, my focus will slowly turn away from my fleshly desires, aka, my Highly Sentitive Personality. I refuse to allow that to come between my worship, and my marriage.